I was running in a forest where trees were made of darkness
The floor made of ice beneath my bare feet
It felt like a million needles piercing through them
In the dream we lost sight of each other forever
When I screamed your name
the echoes only came back endlessly
And no matter how much tears I cried
it still felt like all hell had broken loose inside my bones
I was awaken when the drizzle stopped
The sky is now tinted with a washed-up yellow
Clouds looking like they're in polaroid photos
The blanket was not covering my feet
My mind wanders back into the nightmare I was about to forget
Heartbreaks are so memorable
Even in dreams
In the waking world they come in waves, invariably
And the surroundings seem less dramatic
In the waking world I'll torch the trees
I'll muffle my ears from my own voice
I'll drill apart the glacier
In the waking world
I won't go looking for you running –
the cold will paralyze my frosted feet
But in the real world
I spoke to you with words I used to tear myself apart with
Words that are now foreign to me
In the real world I was just violently
trying to see the most vulnerable side you'd never show anyone
In the real world I missed all the parts your hands held and let go of
Everywhere overflowing with love
But it's always Winter with your touch
Your words more frigid than hailstones
And I thought I was angry with you
when I was only angry with myself
because what you said made me believe
that I didn't understand the world anymore
"Well, that's your problem," you'd say
And that's true
The world has been the same
What has changed was the way I looked at it
I tried my best to understand the real world
To rationalize what you said to me
But your words
They're still foreign to me
And we're still a planet away from each other
So lately I've been thinking
Maybe I'll never understand at all
Because to understand is not to think
To understand is to experience
And how we see the world is how we see ourselves in it
In the real world, I was running away from you
In the real world, I was afraid
In the real world
My world ended when we lost sight of each other, forever
